And All At Once The Crowd Begins To Sing

Sometimes I lie in bed thinking about the choices I have made in my life and wonder if I am doing the right thing. Whether I'm where I should be, doing what I'm supposed to do. Some nights the answer is yes, how could it possibly be anything else? But other times I'm not so sure.

On the ride from Montreal to Hamilton, I struck a conversation with the person in the next seat and we had a great chat the entire flight - so much so that we were both surprised when the plane descended! A part of the conversation we shared some of our travels, our plans, and our dreams. We spoke of the places we would love to go, the things we wanted to do. I mentioned that I would most likely have to wait quite a while to do all these things and he urged me to not wait until he was 45 to do them like he did. And he was so confident in the things he was going to do. His dreams were not a question of "if" but of "when", and that "when" was very reachable.

I admire people like that. People who know what they're going to do and no matter what they do it. Some days I find myself heading towards the one of the attitudes I dislike the most: apathy. When you just throw up your hands and exclaim "I don't know and I don't care!" That scares me. Never do I want to be like that. And yet here I sit, with no goal and no motivation, at the supposed prime of my life.

Well no more. If there's one thing I know that is not the path I want to head down and 2007 is too precious of a year to waste, especially at the very end. 2008 is just around the corner, and with it brings a new semester, a new set of months, and most certainly a new beginning. Two days is all that's left of this year. I don't know about you but I'm going to resolve to borrow some of the attitude of a certain iconic figure and for those times when I do throw up my hands, the words coming out of my mouth I will strive to make them be: "To infinity... and beyond!"

What You're Looking For You Won't Find It In Me

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
- "Say" (OneRepublic)

We’ve been burning money like gasoline
Trying to take us to the next dream
We’ve been tapping into something
I can’t explain it but I’m trying, yeah I’m trying
Some would say we’re reaching too high
If that’s makes me guilty I don’t want any alibis
- "Everything Is Possible" (Enation)

Found the right words
But they only died on my lips
- "Silhoutte" (Yellow Second)

Slip away with me, close your eyes you’re free
Dreams are often lost, but heaven’s not far off
- "10,000 x 10,000" (The Myriad)

Give it up or get it right
I’m going under yeah, but not without a fight
- "Hello To Never" (Yellow Second)

I'm leaping out too far
I've never been so sure
Letting go of charts
And falling close to stars
- "Captiva" (Falling Up)

"BE CONFIDENT. I'm Flalesse."

Just saw that ad in the bottom of an msn conversation. It is part of a series by the company to sell birth control. That makes me mad. HELLO, I want to shout out, BIRTH CONTROL IS NOT AN INDICATION OF CONFIDENCE! If you think having sex or birth control makes you a smart, sexy, and amazing woman, then sorry to say honey but you have got it all wrong.

As if we needed to satisfy some guy's hormonal urges to make us feel that way...

Ugh!

P.S.
All that but vice-versa to guys too. Seriously, we should ALL know better!

71 New Questions You’ve Probably Never Been Asked.

1. Did you take a test today?
Not yet.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Umm brown.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Mhmm.

4.Do you plan outfits?
Occasionally.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Feelin' fine.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having.
I was on a ship.

8. What are you craving right now?
Something crunchy.

9. Do you floss?
Whenever I remember to.

10. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Stew ^.^

11. Would you dance to the taco song?
Maybe if I was in the mood.

12. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Not one by one...

13. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
A pleasant mix of both.

14. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yup.

15. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yes.

16. Who are you listening to right now?
The radio in the kitchen. Sounds like Magic 93.

17. How many countries have you visited?
Don't know off the top of my head.

18. Are your parents strict?
Depends.

19. Would you go sky diving?
Love to!

20. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Of course! Who would refuse a luncheon with the president??

21. Would you throw potatoes at him?
Umm no that's horrible.

22. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
...My eyes? Haha no clue.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Nope although now I have a credit card I can.

24. Who sits beside you in your math class?
Sometimes David if we both aren't skipping.

25. Can you count backwards from 74?
Yes but it would take some time.

26. Who are you going to be with tonight?
At the party.

27. Brown or white eggs?
Apparently brown eggs are healthier.

28. Ever been on a train?
Yeah. Pretty cool.

30. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Chillin' with mee! Haha no clue.

31. Ever have cream puffs?
Oh yes!

32. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Nope. But I hear it's good.

33. What was the last question you asked?
"Do you want some?"

34. What was the last CD you bought?
Haha not sure.

35. Boys or girls?
Are equally valid.

37. Is your hair curly?
I wish.

38. Last time you cried?
Last week?

39. Ever walked into a wall?
Oh yes.

40. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
Not sure.

41. Favorite time of the year?
Festive times :)

42. Favorite color?
I stand by my rainbow.

43. Do you have any tattoos?
Billions.

44. The next person you’ll hold hands with… will it mean anything?
That they don't have cooties? That they have hands? I don't understand.

45. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No tv in my room.

46. Where was your default picture taken at?
My desk.

47. Do you like your life right now?
Life is nice.

49. Do you have good vision?
Not really.

50. Can you hula hoop?
Haha doubt it.

51. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Yes. That doesn't mean I would go back out with them though.

52. Do you have a job?
Not yet.

53. What are you wearing?
Clothes. And soon a jacket.

54. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Mhmm.

55. Can you handle the truth?
I wouldn't want anything but.

56. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Heels.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Depends. Most days usually.

58. Do you hate/dislike more than 3 people?
No.

59. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes but not when I'm actually mad.

60. Do looks matter?
To an extent.

61. Do you use chap stick?
Yes I do!

62. Are you too forgiving?
Is there ever too forgiving?

63. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Nope.

64. Do you own a gun?
Don't want one, don't need one.

65. Have you made a prank phone calls?
Sadly yes.

66. Do you like your hair?
It will do?

67. Do you like yourself?
I don't hate myself.

68. Are you emotional?
Sometimes.

69. When was the last time you talked on aim?
Never. No one had AOL other than me :(

70. Did you meet anybody new today?
I haven't been out of the house lol.

71. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
A P.E.I. Open Farm Day bookmark / Rocket calendar for the 2007-08 season.

Good Food, Good Friends, And Umm... Corn Chowdah.

So I've been back for two full days now and what a time it's been. I've only been gone for a couple of months but in some ways it seems like forever. Ten days seemed like a while but now it seems like hardly enough. People have been so great; my family here, my friends. Homesickness had never ever been a problem for me, but there have been so many memories made here that it makes it impossible to miss. I hear so many people saying how they want to get out of this place so bad, but that's only because they don't realize how good they've got it until they don't got it anymore.

I was talking over msn with a good friend I haven't seen for a while. She's been away out west for months, training for the mission field. Friday she completed her training and Monday she traveled all the way to Thailand. I didn't think we'd be able to stay in contact but she found some way to get online which was great. Now I've never been to Thailand and though the names sound kind of similar it seems a lot different than Taiwan so I don't have a clue what it's like there. But what a difference it would be from here! And by "here" I mean North America.

Wow totally started going off on a tangent, but anyways I'll let her tell her own story; it's not mine to say.

Anyways I arrived safe and sound. The plane from Halifax to Charlottetown was the tiniest I had ever seen; an 18 seater, with two rows of one. When I walked out of the tunnel to get to the plane outside, I wasn't sure if that was the plane I was supposed to get on or a private one. Almost veered off to a different plane LOL. But though it had arrived late and there weren't as many amenities as say, a jumbo jet, it was an incredible experience. You could feel every bit of that aircraft taking off and its journey in the sky. If I was ever to fly a plane, I would want it to be a small one like that one. It even had two open propellers instead of the large cylindrical cups - a very nice old school charm. I even saw the sun disappear under the Nova Scotia horizon. If you have never watched the sun go down, go do so right now.

The family here had a big get-together lunch here yesterday - it was wonderful. People came all the way from Murray Harbour for Jon because he was given an offer he couldn't refuse to go out west for a couple of months. He's a strong worker and is appreciated and in high demand over there, which is great. But two months is a while, and it will be sad to see him have to go right after Christmas. It is an honour though, and I'm really happy for him.

Josie is due in March. If you ask her she is able to tell you exactly how many days it has been, centimetres it is, and how many pounds she has gained since. Quite amazing! Dan seems so excited and was extra jolly for those few minutes that we saw each other. They are going to make amazing parents!

Over the last couple of days I've been lucky enough to hang out with some really good friends, namely Morissa, Katie, and Courtney. Morissa I've known ever since I started school on the Island in grade five and Katie and Courtney have been amazing friends since grade eight when I switched schools. We each have had our fights and fallouts but there has definitely been way more fantastic times and great memories made.

Speaking of memories, I was looking through some old files on this computer today and found tons of pictures, many I had completely forgotten about from 2004-2006 that I had taken with my digital camera. They're uploaded to Facebook so if you want to check that out go right ahead. Feel free to tag yourself too, since I'm too lazy to do any. And sorry if there's not many pictures of you; I realized as I was going through them how I would be snap-happy at certain times and other just as big times there would hardly be any. But if you really wanted, you could dig through your old photos and make an album yourself. No pressure though. At least not a big one...

Anyhoo it is late and I want to get up before 10 am tomorrow so goodnight all of the maybe one random person who accidentally stumbles across this! And leave a comment too if you've got time or even if you don't. I miss those.

Pinch Me

1. Are you taller than your best friend?
Haha I wish. Being able to reach things would be nice ;)

2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?
Nope though I am a slave to the staedtler remedy...

3. Look at your planner for December 15, what are you doing?
Hopefully by this time next year I will be done exams and umm asleep.

4. What color are your toenails usually?
It changes. I'm thinking purple next though =)

5. What was the last thing you highlighted?

Psych handbook.

6. What color are the curtains in your bedroom?
Blue & white striped

7. What color are the seats in your car?
Here? Tan.

8. Have you ever had a black and white cat?
Nope

9.What was the last thing you put a stamp on?
A letter?

10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
Not that I know of.

11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time?
For Tim Hortons

12. Who is the last baby that you held?
Hmm can't remember. Don't really hold babies often...

14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste?
Oh yes.

16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators?
If I had to choose... the Gators. I'm assuming they have a cooler logo.

17. Last time you went to Six Flags?
Neverr.

18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house?
Why, yes I do.

19. Closest thing to you that is yellow?
My skin ;)

20. Last person you gave a business card?
A nice lady.

21. Who was the last person you wrote a check or money order to?
I think the one and only money order I did was for a magazine subscription in like... grade 8.

22. Closest framed picture to you?
Billy boy.

23. Last time you had someone cook for you?
This afternoon =D

24. Have you ever felt you weren’t good enough?
Mhmm.

25. How many emails do you get in your inbox daily (excluding spam)?
Depends.

26. Last time you received flowers?
Umm grade eight?

28. Do you play air guitar?
Haha yes!

29. Has anyone ever proposed to you?
Not for real!

30. Do you take anything in your coffee
Where is that question mark? And usually what is known as the "double double".

31. Do you have any willow tree figurines?
Yup, they're on top of my Hamilton bookcase. Not like I have a bookcase anywheres else though.

32. What was your high school's mascot?
A colonel? Original, I know...

33. Last person you spoke to from school?
Current one? Derek.

34. Last time you used hand sanitizer?
The day of my surprise birthday party? I still have it!

35. Would you like to learn to play the drums?
I would!

36. What color are the blinds in your living room?
The one off the kitchen? White.

38. Last thing you read in the newspaper?
The funnies. I'm just that smooth ;)

39. What was the last pageant or play you attended?
Umm The Wizard of Oz?

40. What is the last place you bought pizza from?
Dominos. Gotta love debit on delivery!

41. Have you ever worn a crown?
For sure.

42. What is the last thing you stapled?
The air? I was just shooting them out to see if it worked.

43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi?
Not a Pepsi girl.

44. Are you ticklish?
Never. Don't even bother trying.

45. Last time you saw fireworks?
Canada Day? Wow that was quite a while ago. Something must be done.

46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut?
Oh my goodness I had one in October... so good!!

47. Who is the last person that left you a message & you actually returned?
On my answering machine? My mom.

49. Do you have a black dog?
No.

50. Can you give one reason why David Caruso is allowed to keep acting?
Because he's David Caruso? Who is he?

51. Are you an aunt or uncle?
You just wait 'till March!

52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of?
This is a tough one.

53. Last time you saw a semi truck?
That I distinctively remember? The trip to P-Mall?

54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe?
What that's horrible.

55. Do you have a little black dress?
Yes but I never wear it haha.

2 AM And She Calls Me Because I'm Still Awake...

1. Is anything wrong?
Umm I just found a virus on my dad's computer. But it's in the process of being fixed :)

2. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
Don't have that.

3. Where do you want to go to college?
Well I'm already in university so... MCC? I'd love to do the culinary institute also.

4. How many kids do you want to have?
Not sure.

5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
We try :)

6. What did you do for your last birthday?
My friends threw me a surprise birthday party... which I was totally late for haha

7. What were you doing last night at 12?
Umm just getting home

8. Name something you CANNOT wait for?
Plane ride!

9. Last time you saw your father?
Uhh right before he went to bed... maybe 10 or 10:30?

10. What is some thing(s) you would change in your life?
I would get to know people better and have a greater memory capacity to remember everything

11. Do you know anyone named Tom?
Why does this question pop up? Do you know someone named Jerry?

12. Last thing you ate/drank?
Nut mix and water

13. Whats your favorite month?
Hmm maybe May, since it's spring and hopefully relatively warm.

14. What is your least favorite month?
Wow I dont' have one. I can't think of any month that I don't like. I mean weatherwise, probably February, because that's usually pretty icy. But it's a short one so it's not really that bad

15. Do you like peanut butter?
Especially with maple syrup =D

16. Who’s making you feel the way you are right now?
No one "makes" you feel anything. You are the one that decides to feel it.

17. Most visited webpage?
It's a run between e-mail, facebook, and google.

18. Last person to make you mad?
Mike haha

19. Coke or pepsi?
Definitely Coke. Pepsi tastes cheaper... and is more gassy too.

22. How many siblings do you have?
One

23. Do you have any pets?
Not of my own. Had a plant.

24. Whats your favorite number?
188

25. What do you do after school/work?
Break-times :)

27. Do you have a best friend?
Sort of


HABIT CONFESSIONS

1. Do you play with things when nervous?
I usually play with things anyways, but moreso when I'm nervous.

2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?
I like to do crafts and sometimes that involves cutting things and I enjoy it, but I don't think it's an obsession...

3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
Closed. I find it harder to sleep when it's open.


4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand?

The screech of metal or chalkboards. You know, the kind of sounds that make you cringe? Yeah I don't like those.

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS

1. Do you hate George Bush:
No I feel bad for him, with everyone always blasting him down. I don't know much about politics but I'm sure he did some great things for the country too. Also I read an article interviewing his daughter on Times and it's funny how we never really think about what their family is going through having to listen to all this.

2. Do you think abortion is horrible and should be illegal?
For me, I think life starts the moment that sperm hits the egg. I mean as soon as that happens, the egg starts to divide and it is an incredible process. And there have been cases where premature babies who are still in the window for abortion have been c-sectioned and lived, perfectly healthy. And if you really didn't want your baby, then there is always adoption, no matter what the circumstances for their conception was.


3. Is gay marriage fine by you?

I wouldn't do it lol


4. Do boys make better friends than girls?
No, they both make great friends.

5. Is pink an ugly color?
Pink is nice, but when I see it overly used my heart dies a little inside.

6. Needles aren't so horrible?
Well when you have to take then you have to take them, but I still always have to close my eyes and mentally prepare myself.

7. You have plenty of secrets?
Not really haha

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS

1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs?
Mhmm

2. Have you ever had a nail fall off?
Yes, after slamming the same finger in doors three times, all by accident =S

3. Have you ever slapped someone across the face?
Not seriously

4. Have you ever killed anyone?
How did you guess?

5. Worn the same clothes for a week straight?
Not for an entire week, though in moments of desperation I have reworn clothes various times (see NB 2007, bus scheduling complications)

OTHER CONFESSIONS

1. Do you forget to take off your makeup when you go to sleep?
There have been some times when I forget to wash my face before bed but not usually.

2. Have you kissed anyone on your top friends list?
Again, I do not have one, nor will I ever get one. Gosh!

3. Do you enjoy drama?
It certainly adds a little humour and excitment in life haha

5. Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?
Sort of. But mostly it is just joking around.

6. Who would you like to hit right now?
Your face.

7. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
I doubt my life is that exciting ;)

ALL ABOUT YOU

Birthday:
August 18th

Favorite color:
Purple and green, but I love rainbows.

Least favorite color:
Diarrhea yellow/brown. Does not look good people!

Least favorite food:
Brussel sprouts, no question.

THIS OR THAT

Wheat bread or white bread?
Multigrain all the way =D

Cake or pie?
Oh dear... I would have to go with pie I suppose.

House .. shoes or barefoot?
Barefeet.

Zoo or aquarium?
Wow tough question. Aquariums are usually prettier, but zoos are so nice too.

Waffles or pancakes?
Waffles for sure

Breakfast or brunch?
Breakfast, because then you get to eat lunch later =)

Camping or staying in a hotel?
Staying in a hotel for sure but I love camping also, as long as there are adequate washroom facilities, which include a nice shower.

Spiders or snakes?
Snakes definitely. I hate having to capitalize the start of every single one of these either/or questions also. Just getting that out there.

Math or science?
Definitely without a doubt science. Not only is it more exciting to me, but also if you feel like math it's in there too.

Preps or punks?
How about let's not put a label on people, shall we?

Soap operas or talk shows?
Talk shows. I never really got into the soap operas. There's a point where things become too corny, and the ones I've seen have reached it.

Sesame Street or Barney?
Sesame Street all the way, although Barney did have BJ, and I loved that guy.

Shampoo+conditioner (2 in 1) or separate conditioner?
Separate. Quality over convenience.

Police officers or firefighters?
Firefighters. Gotta love that uniform, and of course, their ride ;)

Watching sports or watching the news?
I would have to say the news. You learn more.

Pizza or tacos?
Ohh hard one. It depends on the mood but for me tacos are rarer so I would have to pick those.

Pringles or lays stacks?
Pringles. They are the originals.

Rap or country?
Country for sure.

Reading or writing?
Reading, I'm not that brilliant of a writer (as you may have noticed) =)

HAVE YOU EVER?

Cheated on a test?
Yes but it's dishonest and I don't anymore.

Copied someone else's homework?
Yes and it's dishonest but I'm an idiot

Smashed a pumpkin?
No but it always crosses my mind.

Held a tarantula?
No. I think I would be paralyzed with fear and fascination.

Climbed a rock wall?
Haha no but always wanted to.

Been arrested?
No but I have rode in the back of a police car and been inside a jail cell, but on two different occasions.

Stolen from your parents?
Nothing that they wouldn't let me have if I had asked but I sometimes take things without asking, like these nuts for example. But I'm not about to wake them up at this hour and ask permission lol.

Had a crush on someone over 10 years older than you?
No. There are people in movies and stuff who are older and I would consider them good looking but I wouldn't call it a crush.

Drank a beer?
Yeah

Danced in the rain?
Mhmm

Had your house catch on fire?
Nope, although there was a candle incident in my room.

Had sex in a public place?
Umm no.

Watched the same movie twice in one day?
Yeah haha. You know you're cool when... =P

Ran in a marathon?
Always wanted to, but not enough endurance.

Gotten so drunk you threw up and didn't make it to a toilet?
No can't say I have or would ever want to haha

Been to another country?
Yep

Had chicken pox?
So I hear.

Had strep throat?
Don't think so

Had measles?
Not that anyone has ever told me.

Had scarlet fever?
No, although I have had a fever high enough to hallucinate once.

Had mumps?
Not that I know of

Had mono?
Nope

Had lice?
No but it always feel like I do whenever I get checked.

Dyed your hair an un-natural color?
Never dyed it, but if I did I would.

Dressed goth?
I have black clothes and I wear them. Whoopdedoo.

Worn a chain wallet?
Can't wear what you don't have, as far as wallets go at least.

Gone snowboarding?
Always wanted to.

Gotten a bulls eye (darts)?
Haha not legitimately.

Bailed someone out of jail?
Nope

Been the "new kid"?
Yup

Called 9-1-1?
No but I am always so tempted.

Eaten sardines?
No but I want to just to see what they taste like.

Ridden a motorcycle?
Mhmm

Swam with dolphins?
If I could only swim...

Swam with a shark?
I have splashed around in the ocean and who knows, a shark may have been nearby.

Been stung by a jellyfish?
Ouch yes.

Been pooped on by a bird?
It's a big fear when they fly overhead.

Given the Heimlich maneuver?
Never had the chance.

Received the Heimlich maneuver?
Never had the chance.

Been in an earthquake?
Yup.

Been in a tornado?
Not inside one no.

Been in a hurricane?
Been in the area where it hit.

Been injured in one of the above?
Gratefully no.

ARE YOU?

Shy?
Yes, though I try not to be.

Outgoing?
Depends, but it's something I have to work on more.

Nice?
Hopefully not mean.

Talkative?
Sometimes overly so.

Honest?
I try.

Stubborn?
Oh yes.

Worrier?
Got me there.

Moody?
Can be.

Weird?
Definitely.

Arrogant?
Sometimes. Okay maybe a little more than sometimes haha.

Materialistic?
More than I should be.

Lazy?
Unfortunately.

Athletic?
Not so much.

Competitive?
For sure.

Sore loser?
Sometimes but mostly just jokingly so.

Sore winner?
Same as above.

Overthinking

"Don't touch the positive with the negative end
'Cause after all of the sparks you're left alone in the dark"

Why I Failed Exams...

Not Alone!

Sometimes, when you're stuck being alone in your room trying to study for finals, you come across something that tells you that you are not so alone after all, at least in your opinions. It's a reassuring thing.

Math Happy

Thank goodness for Google, my go-to for math questions that no one on my msn at the moment can answer. Such as "Why does m stand for slope?" and "I love pi. Where can I get a thong to show this?"

Feeling quotatious? Solve your math craving with some of these:

"Pure mathematics is, in its way, the poetry of logical ideas."
~ Albert Einstein

"Black holes result from God dividing the universe by zero."
~ Author Unknown

"I never did very well in math - I could never seem to persuade the teacher that I hadn't meant my answers literally."
~ Calvin Trillin

"Math is radical!"
~ Bumper Sticker

"Go down deep enough into anything and you will find mathematics."
~ Dean Schlicter

"A mathematician is a device for turning coffee into theorems."
~ Paul Erdos

"Pure mathematics is the world's best game. It is more absorbing than chess, more of a gamble than poker, and lasts longer than Monopoly. It's free. It can be played anywhere - Archimedes did it in a bathtub."
~ Richard J. Trudeau

“Mathematics may be defined as the subject in which we never know what we are talking about, nor whether what we are saying is true.”
~Bertrand Russell

"Arithmetic is being able to count up to twenty without taking off your shoes."
~ Mickey Mouse

"'Every minute dies a man, Every minute one is born;' I need hardly point out to you that this calculation would tend to keep the sum total of the world's population in a state of perpetual equipoise, whereas it is a well-known fact that the said sum total is constantly on the increase. I would therefore take the liberty of suggesting that in the next edition of your excellent poem the erroneous calculation to which I refer should be corrected as follows: "Every moment dies a man, And one and a sixteenth is born." I may add that the exact figures are 1.067, but something must, of course, be conceded to the laws of metre."
~ Charles Babbage, letter to Alfred, Lord Tennyson, about a couplet in his "The Vision of Sin"

"Math is fun!"
~ L Griffin, written at the top of the board before every class

Looking for a way to show that someone you are both smart and sophisticated? Count on these lines:

I don't know if you're in my range, but I'd sure like to take you home to my domain.

I wish I were a derivative so I could lie tangent to your curves.

My love for you is a monotonically increasing unbounded function.

Your beauty defies real and complex analysis.

You and I add up better than a Riemann sum.

Hey baby, what's your sine?

If I were sine squared and you were cosine squared together we'd be one.

Are you the square root of 2? Because I feel irrational when I am around you.

Ever wonder what L’Hopital’s rule has to say about limits in the form of me over you?

Nice calculator. Wanna iterate?

How can I know so many hundreds of digits of pi and not the digits of your phone number?



Now if I can only actually do some math!

"I Am There" by James Dillet Freeman

Do you need Me ?
I am there.
You cannot see Me, yet I am the light you see by.
You cannot hear Me, yet I speak through your voice.
You cannot feel Me, yet I am the power at work in your hands.

I am at work, though you do not understand My ways.
I am at work, though you do not understand My works.
I am not strange visions. I am not mysteries.

Only in absolute stillness, beyond self, can you know Me
as I AM, and then but as a feeling and a faith.

Yet I am here. Yet I hear. Yet I answer.
When you need ME, I am there.
Even if you deny Me, I am there.
Even when you feel most alone, I am there.
Even in your fears, I am there.
Even in your pain, I am there.

I am there when you pray and when you do not pray.
I am in you, and you are in Me.
Only in your mind can you feel separate from Me, for
only in your mind are the mists of "yours" and "mine".
Yet only with your mind can you know Me and experience Me.

Empty your heart of empty fears.
When you get yourself out of the way, I am there.
You can of yourself do nothing, but I can do all.
And I AM in all.

Though you may not see the good, good is there, for
I am there. I am there because I have to be, because I AM.

Only in Me does the world have meaning; only out of Me does the world take form; only because of ME does the world go forward.
I am the law on which the movement of the stars
and the growth of living cells are founded.

I am the love that is the law's fulfilling. I am assurance.
I am peace. I am oneness. I am the law that you can live by.
I am the love that you can cling to. I am your assurance.
I am your peace. I am ONE with you. I am.

Though you fail to find ME, I do not fail you.
Though your faith in Me is unsure, My faith in you never
wavers, because I know you, because I love you.

Beloved, I am there.

Does this sound faintly familiar? Written in 1947, James B. Irwin took it aboard Apollo 15. His mother had given it to him before the flight, and he actually left a copy of the poem on the moon.

Pretty amazing, huh?

"Daylight To Break" - Switchfoot

I've seen the darkest things
Crawling inside of me
I've seen the monsters come alive
I've seen the enemy
The nightmare follows me
Searching the darkness for a light

Waiting for daylight to break up this room
Waiting for daylight to break
I've been alone in the dark
I've been dreaming
Now I'm waking up without You
I've been waking up without You for too long

Back in the tragedy
I've made a mess of me
My bitter means, my bitter ends
I've seen the irony
It gets the best of me
Dying to be made new again

Waiting for daylight to break up this room
Waiting for daylight to break
I've been alone in the dark
I've been dreaming the day when dreamers are awake
The sun hits my eyes and everything is right
I've been waking up without You
I've been waking up without You
I've been waring alarms till You were in my arms
I've been waking without You
I've been waking up without You for too long

Waiting for to daylight to break up the room
Waiting, waiting
I've been alone in the dark
I've been dreaming the day when dreamers are awake
The sun hits my eyes and everything is right
I've been waking up without You
I've been waking up without You
Ive been waring alarms till You were in my arms
I've been waking up without You
I've been waking up without You for too long

True Colours

BLUE IS LOVE
1. Do you like someone? Guess so.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not at all.
3. Have you ever loved someone so much it hurt? You mean when your heart explodes?! No.
RED IS ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Nope, I am feeling happiness :)
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper? We all can I think haha
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? Oh yes! Though not necessarily out of anger ;)
4. Is anyone mad at you? If so they should tell me.

YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name? Sandy
2. What is your career plan for the future? Good question!
3. What's your main goal in life? To live it!
4. Do you want to have children? Sometime yes.

ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? Haha yes! Thanks guys :D
2. If you won a million dollars, what would be the first thing you'd do? Buy houses for everyone! Although in this day and age, a million big ones is no longer that big...
3. If you could have anything right now what would it be? A chocolate bar.

GREEN IS OPINION
1. Lower the drinking age? I once heard that it was 19 because it messes with the development of your brain cells or something. Check me if I'm wrong. But does it matter what the drinking age is? If someone wanted a drink that badly, I'm sure they will find a way.
2. Abortion? A person is a person, no matter how small.
3. War? Is it necessary? Whom does it benefit? Is it worth your life or mine? Think about it.
4. Global Warming? Scary. I don't mind snow but ice is a different story!

PURPLE IS Q&A
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
A: Eat.
Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: I only know one person named Tom, but we aren't really friends. More like I know who he is, and he probably only knows my family.
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: I would like to say McMaster WebCT, but really it's Facebook >.>
Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: I did! Until it died... I blame misleading GM Plant Lights (they don't really help your plant!)
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: Too cold to feel.
Q: Do you own a camera phone?
A: Yes, but not because it has a camera. In fact, I don't even LIKE the camera, since the cameras on camera phones are bad quality. What I WOULD like is a real camera. But that is after I win the million dollars...

PINK IS LAST
1. Last movie watched in theatres? Umm Hairspray? Wow that was a long time ago...
2. Song you listened to? Hopeless
3. Person you last talked/texted on the phone with? Beijing Hut

GRAY IS TODAY
1. What are you doing tonight? Probably do some calc questions. Exam soon :S
2. What are you going to eat? I am already eating some eggplant pork
3. Where are you going to be at 2:00am? Hopefully in bed!

BLACK IS TOMORROW
1.Tomorrow is? A fresh start.
2. Are you looking forward to it? More or less.
3. Are you going to laugh? Always.
4. Who are you going to be with? Your mom :)

Trash-Talk

It all started with picking up the student paper while on my way back from class. I thought nothing of it, just stored it in my bag and went on my way. Forgot about it actually, until this afternoon, when I reached into my bag to get my pencil (for math notes) when I remembered the paper and started reading.

It was the sideline on the front page that caught my eye. "City To Vote On Garbage Bag Limit" it says. We already have a three bag limit, a difficult feat for a household of nine people, not to mention university students who hoard bottles, pizza boxes, and chinese take-out like it was 1935. And I include myself in this, because sometimes it's just nice to have someone else cook or store a beverage into a container for you, even if you have to pay for it.

So you can imagine my nervousness while reading that there was a vote to be taken that night (November 29th). So I raced to the local newspaper website and did a quick search in the archives. And SHOCK, HORROR, it got passed. Down to one bag. Effecting March 30th, 2008. I read this once. I read this twice. No change. I pass on the news and read it again. Still no change. What is this! On the bottom of the page I see a footnote. "Share your feedback at hallmarks.thespec.com. So, determined to voice my opinion on this rather messy subject (pun slightly intended), I went. It's a blog. And this is the first entry I read:

"November 30, 2007

I feel your pain...

Just got an email that made me laugh. You've likely read about council's confusion over their new garbage rules, imagine writing a school report about it.

my name is XXX and i attend saltfleet high school, grade 11.
For our geography independent study, our teacher assigned us to do seminars based on local environmental crisis. I chose to do the garbage bag limit. however, as I've been writing my report, I've noticed that everyday, the decision changes. I've been following up with the hamilton spectator, however I've had to change my report a couple times already based on the "confused" decisions. please help me. do you have advice for me? when should i date my project as it takes effect? 2009? 2010? my report is due Tuesday, December 4th. please write back.

thank you very much."


LOL. I suddenly love this blog and this student very much. But now I am in a confusion. When exactly IS this date? I did not read 2009 or 2010. I read 2008. Could I possibly have read the right one? Please no. Please. So I keep reading.

"November 29, 2007

Clarity for council

Waste staff sent out a press release this afternoon explaining what council passed last night, despite the fact many councillors are still confused. Basically it will go from three to two to one bags by 2010. Residents will be given time to adjust to the one container limit.

Here's the low down written by the city:

March 31, 2008 through March 28, 2009

We will continue to collect up to 3 containers of garbage per household per week. Collection crews will take note of addresses with more than 1 garbage container at the curb so that we can follow-up with additional education in the form of a letter or a visit by customer service staff. Any additional container(s) above 3 will be tagged with Oops! stickers and left behind.

March 30, 2009 – April 3, 2010

We will collect 1 container of garbage and 1 clear garbage bag (provided that the clear bag does not contain acceptable blue box and / or green cart material(s)) per household per week. Collection crews will take note of addresses with more than 1 garbage container at the curb so that we can follow-up with additional education in the form of a letter or a visit by customer service staff. Any additional garbage container(s) above 1 (in an opaque bag or in a clear bag containing acceptable blue box and / or green cart material(s)) will be tagged with Oops! stickers and left behind.

April 5, 2010 – onward

We will collect 1 container of garbage per household per week. Collection crews will take note of addresses with more than 1 garbage container at the curb so that we can follow-up with additional education in the form of a letter or a visit by customer service staff. Addresses that are continually unable to and / or unwilling to comply (unless they have approval through the special consideration process) will be referred to By-Law and Enforcement for follow-up."

Clarity is a beautiful thing.

Humour is also quite wonderful. If you want a good laugh and to read what the heck happened, check this out: http://www.thespec.com/News/Local/article/289440. I'd copy and paste this too, but I've done that enough. And plus, it's just too funny!

The End Is Near...

Today marks the last day of classes... and also the closeness of exams. Less than a week until the four bang off in succession. Funny how time flies.

When I was looking in my old notes, I found a note that I had written on my first day of school. Here is a sample:

"35 minutes to class and I'm sitting here waiting, in some obscure corner of the the Togo Salmon Hall. Interesting place; there are fish randomly painted on the basement walls. It is said that 'Today is the first day of the rest of your life.' It might as well be the last, I am just as nervous. I know there's probably nothing to worry about. All the same, the wait is nervewracking. I'm trying to think of anything related to archaeology that I know. All i can think of is dinosaurs... Remember that crazy bag I bought at Walmart to sneak in food for the movies? Well I just glanced up and what do I see but someone walking by with the exact same one! Oh the memories... I am running on a pure adrenaline rush [from lack of sleep]. I would love to have stayed in bed, but then again I don't think I could go to sleep if I tried. Too excited and plus I have a medium iced cap keeping me company..."

It's funny looking back. Archaeology had turned out to be great; in fact, it was one of my favourite courses (which I then proceeded to drop). The classes weren't worth the worry at all.

How many times have we stressed ourselves out needlessly?